First official Post
Let me start off by saying hello. I though I would start this blog just so I could let the world know what I go through on a daily basis. I am am 23 years old and I live right outside of Philadelphia, PA. I am a mother of a beautiful baby girl and I don't know what I would do without her in my life. We live in a nice little row home and I couldn't be happier with her. But on the other hand there is her father. He also lives with us(sigh). We have been together for almost 7 years now and we aren't married or even engaged. When people ask me if I have a boyfriend I always get tripped up because I never know what to say. How do you describe to a guy that you meet that you have a daughter and you live with her father and you share the same bed but we really aren't together. Talk about scaring someone off in a blink of an eye. Here is the case with me and her father. Like I said we have been together for 7 years now. Nothing as far as commitment has been talked about. I guess you could say he is my boyfriend but truthfully I don't really even care about him anymore. He is a piece of shit in my eyes. He sleeps on the weekends until about 1pm and when he does get up he just doesn't do a damn thing. It is what are we having for dinner or didn't you mop the floor yet. Something along that line. And you know I am at a point where I am tired of it. I want to get out there and experience my 20's. I never got a chance to do that because I had a baby. I am a very responsible parent. I never like to pawn her off onto someone just so I can go out with my friends but a little bit of a social life would be nice. It is just a constant routine, work, gym, home, and maybe if I am luck some sleep. The only communication I have with the real world besides work is when I go to the gym. I go 3 times a week to lose some weight. I have a great trainer and I just feel so much more better about myself after I have a good work out. Anyway I guess the purpose of this blog is just so I can vent about my life and I guess see if there is anyone else out there who has the same issues with men/women. I would like to think that I am not the only girl out there who cant muster up the balls to walk out of the relationship. I guess my problem is that I am not so confident about myself. Oh Well. Until next time.
posted by safegurl @ 11:20 AM
2 Comments:
Hey! Don't worry. Things will fall into place. They always do. Just be patient and keep your eyes open for opportunities.
Good luck!
You aren't alone. My twin sister is 25 with a 3 year old daughter and 8 month old son. She was separated from her husband while pregnant with her son and now they are going though divorce.
Somewhere along the way she lost herself. She used to be so full of self esteem is was practically coming out her ears, but she lost that somewhere along the way. She only has work, the kids and hoping she can pay the bills every month because he doesn't give her any money or help.
But I have to believe things will only get better for her from here, and so I have to believe that the same goes for you.
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