Another Day, Another Dollar
Another day on the job. God could work ever be fun? Last night I skipped the gym. I just really wasn't up for it. It was so nice out I figured I would just play with my daughter outside. The weekend is right around the corner. I am heading down the shore with some of my girl friends just to get away from it all. It is just what the doctor ordered.Last night was nothing different than a regular night at our house. I rushed home from work to pick up my daughter and make dinner for the family. Sometimes I just take a step back and I cant believe that I am a mother and I am in a relationship that is going nowhere. I swear to myself that one day I will get enough confidence to walk out but I know I never will. I have lost all confidence/self esteem in myself it is horrible. I feel like if I walk out I will never have someone ever again but then I think what would be better being alone or just pretending to myself that everything is alright. On the outside I look like I am as strong as a rock but on the inside I am a bowl of mush. I sit here and I tell my friend's what I wish I could do. Why don't I have any confidence in myself. Where did it go? In the news around here is the young mother who was murdered by her boyfriend and she was 5 moths pregnant and I think to myself how do good girls get themselves involved with scum bag men. I swear to myself that I will never let my daughter go through the hurt that I am going through now.
Also last night I got into a big fight with my boyfriend over his mother. She is the biggest bitch I ever met in my life. So her birthday is on Friday and I told her several week ago that I was going down the shore on Saturday and my daughter was going down the shore with her other grandmother. So last night she acted like she never knew that we were going to be around on her birthday. I mean we were going to take her out to dinner tomorrow night but now she told us that she doesn't want that for her birthday. She is just such a bitch and I cant stand her. And the best part is she is all talk but will never say anything to my face. She will say everything behind my back and then when I am around not say one word. She thinks her son can do no wrong and that I am the evil one. Oh if she only knew!
Anyway I was checking out the new people today and it looks like Britney is about to POP. I love britney so much. They cant say anything to make her look bad in my eyes. I just wish she wasn't with K-Fed but since we only see him from the outside looking in we really don't know what he is really like. I just wish she never left Justin. They were so cute together.
Does anyone ever read the national enquire online. If you don't you should because Anna Nicole has her own section and she is just such a smacked ass. Everything about her just gets on my nerves. She has the nerve to talk about people when she is an ass herself. She needs to stay out of the spotlitght for a little bit in my opinion.
Anyone watch my super sweet sixteen Monday night? God those triplets were so jealous of each other. Although they weren't as bad as the bitch Sophie from last week. Was I the only one who wanted to beat the living shit out of her. If that was me and I talked to my mother like that I would have gotten the wooden spoon. I guess even with all the money in the word you still cant buy class and she is a true example of that.
I missed Laguna Beach on Monday night. I only caught the last 5 minutes and the previews for next week. By the looks of it Jessica and Jason are done. I feel so bad for her. And that Alex girl is a total whore. Who is she to ask someone else's boyfriend to the prom. TRUE WHORE!!!!!
posted by safegurl @ 3:05 PM
1 Comments:
You are so funny :-) I love all those shows. My mother in law is a bitch too! We have a 2 year old daughter and she thinks everything is a competition with my mother...who buys her more, who sees her more, etc. Too bad my mom isn't even trying to compete with her! I HATE her and my husband and I used to fight about her all the time, but I have given up trying to make him see.
Your boyfriend sounds like a real piece of work and his mother is a bitch. That just gives you more incentive to leave. I know it will be hard, but you don't want your daughter to think that is the way a relationship is supposed to be. A friend of mine was married for 5 years to her highschool sweetheart. They have 2 children and he was never around. She was a stay at home mom and he didn't lift a finger to help her. Finally she left him 2 years ago and she is so much happier. Of course she works like crazy and sometimes struggles with bills, but she said it is all worth it. Good luck :-)
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