Been a while but now I'm back
Goodness I didnt realize how long it has been since I have written in here. Let me get myself up to speed. So got rid of the asshole offically got him out of the house. Almost at the point where we only speak when it has to do with our daughter and that is it. Although he still thinks we are going to get back together he has another thing coming at him. So I have still been talking to the other guy but we hit a little bump in the road over the weekend. And since I am a new woman I am not going to let that sort of shit happen to me anymore. So the situation is this. We have been talking now for about a good 2 months now. He is a really cool guy. We are basically really good friends, we are not boyfried and girlfriend. So he has this friend how is a girl who he is really close with. In the beginning I could tell that he liked her but she wasnt diggin him but now that the two of us started to heat up a little bit he wants no parts of this girl anymore. But what do you know now the girl likes him and she wants the two of them to be together. See when he didnt have anyone she just played with his strings and now that he does have someone she wants him all to herself. well sorry bithc your ship has sailed.
My hot date
So last night I went on a nice date with the new guy. It was really nice. We went out to dinner. Nothing fancy but it was nice for the two of us to just go out and talk and for me to find out if he was saying "love You" to me or not. At one point during dinner I started to get a little nervous b/c he started to drill me over things that I really wasn't expecting. Like I was talking about how we are just friendly right now and it is nothing serious. So I told him if he had the chance to get with other girls that he should do it. But then he through me the curve ball. He told me that he would never do something like that to a girl he is really liking. So then he asked me if I have been hooking up with other dudes while I have been hooking up with him. From what I am told my face turned bright red and I had a big ass smirk on my face. Because the answer is yea I have got with other dudes while I have been hooking up with him. But I don't think I did a damn thing wrong. He needs to take a step back before he gets hurt and realize that he could just be my rebound person. I am not saying that he is but he could be in the long run.
He is nothing like what I see myself with but for some reason I am so drawn to him. I cant put my finger on it but something attracts me to him in a big way. He was asking me why I even talk to him if he is not my type and I didn't have an answer for him b/c I don't know why. I don't know what will become of the two of us but whatever it might be it wont come for a long long time.
The asshole is driving me absolutely insane anymore. I just cant take it. I really wish he would just disappear
WTF?!?!?!?!?!
So I have a big dilemma. So you all know about the new guy. He is really sweet but he is moving a little too fas for me and honestly it is starting to creep me out. So about two weeks ago when we were on the phone before we hung up I swore he said "love You" I just kinda ignored it and said bye. So all that night I was trying to think of things that might sound like that and maybe I just misunderstood him. But the other night on the phone I heard it clear as day. Now it just totally creeped me out. After he said it I was like BYE. Now tonight we have a date and I don't know if I should bring it up or not. I mean I don't want to call him out but on the other hand I am saying to myself WTF I have only know you for a little over a month. Does anyone else think this is weird. I heard from one of his friends that he can be kinda clingy. If he is really saying this shit to me he is out the door. It just seems like he is desperate.
I need some advice on how to approach this. And also I was planning on go away for the night with my girlfriends on Saturday night and I was telling the new dude about it and he was like upset that he wasn't going to see me. I think he is already smothering me. WHY ME!!!
I am alive
I know I haven't posted in a while. Things have been a little hectic on the home front. So as of Friday the asshole has moved out. Wasn't a pretty scene but it was accomplished. I feel like so much weight has been lifted off my shoulders. I have to say I cried all weekend long. And the best part of it was that I wasn't crying over him I was crying over how nasty his mother was to me. She told me that I was running a family and that one day my daughter would realize what a horrible thing I did. And how I was an awful person for cheating on her son and she hopes whoever I cheated with gets his assed kicked. Now those are the words coming out of a 60 year old woman. Shows how much class she has. Last night I didn't sleep too well. Not use to being by myself, but it is something I will be able to get over soon.
So anyway on Saturday night my guy friend stopped by my moms house, since that is where I was staying at until the asshole got all of his shit out. It was nice to see him just one on one and not piss ass drunk. I have to say he is a real sweet heart but lacking in the cute department. Never really noticed it before the other night. And he other flaw is that he is trying way to hard to move to fast. I told him numerous times I don't want to be in another serious relationship and he keeps on saying ok but I don't think he is hearing what I am saying. And I swear the other night I hear him say I love you. Not 100% sure but if he did he is already out the door. I mean come on I am not even out of a relationship yet and you are already saying that sort of shit to me. I think he might be a bit too clingy. And if he was a smart guy he would step back and see that I don't want a relationship right now and that I will most likely hook up with other guys. I mean last Saturday night we went out for my best friends birthday and I was hooking up with the new dude but after he left I hooked up with this guy that I have known for the longest time. Do I feel guilty no one bit. I don't think I am leading the new guy on b/c I tell him over and over again that I don't want a boyfriend right now.
Anyway last night I was exhausted and I missed desperate housewives. I was so pissed. Can anyone fill me in. Anyway got to get back to work. Just wanted to let everyone know that I finally cut the asshole loose.
High Standards
So ever since I have initiated this break up with the asshole and I am in the process of mingling with new people I have decided to set some standards that if the guy doesn't meet he is out the door. I don't think I am being a bitch by doing this. I just feel that I have been put through enough and the least I could do for myself is not get into some of that shit again. So the dude that I am talking to is getting the real one two since I am not putting up with any shit anymore. So far he has been meeting the bar fine until last night. So yesterday he called me while I was at work and while I was on the phone with him he was holding another conversation with one of his friend's from work. He was laughing at something. So I got annoyed and I told him I would just call him later since it seemed that he was busy. He quickly stopped the other conversation but it was already too late. So last night I gave him a call around 7:30pm. Usually when I call him he always answers not last night. And I have never felt comfortable leaving voice mails and since I know that he has called id on his cell phone I didn't leave a message. Lets fast forward to right now and he still hasn't called me back. NOT COOL......He usually always calls me around 1:30 while he is on his break for lunch. Let see if he calls then and if he doesn't he is getting the axe. Simple as that. I am not going through this sort of bullshit again. Someone tell me if I am being a bitch by acting like this.
Talk to ya later!!!
Here we go again
So is it another beautiful Monday morning. Thank god it has stopped raining. I don't think I could have taken one more day of rain. Didn't do to much exciting this weekend. Friday night me and the ass got into a big fight over how he heard that I cheated on him but he left out a big part of the story. So here he asked someone that I didn't know that he knew to watch me to see if I did anything while I was out. That sneaky son of a bitch is all that was going through my mind. So after we had a knock down blow out fight it finally calmed down then one of his friends called and was giving me the one two over this whole thing. He kept on saying to me that we had a family together and to be responsible and just grow up. Oh I could feel the steam coming out of my ears. So I came to the conclusion that the asshole must try to do whatever he can to make himself look good and make me look like the bitch.
So anyway after the baby went to bed on Friday night I went out for a little bit. Believe me nothing exciting what-so-ever. This week is probably going to be a long one and this up coming weekend is packed full of crap we have to do. Well let me get back to doing nothing at work.
Until later!!!!
P.S. Desperate housewives was good last night. Loved how Andrew was fucking with the pharmacist. Terri Hatcher is just getting on my nerves anymore. Can stand her. LB is on tonight cant fucking wait!!!!!!!!!!!!
I got caught red handed
So last night my boyfriend, who I am now on a break with, found out how I hooked up with someone at the bar the other weekend. But the topper was I was out on a date with the dude last night while the asshole was calling me trying to rip me over it. So what happened was a guy that my friend likes is from the same area as the asshole and I guess my friend mentioned that I was talking to the new dude and he ran back and told someone who he knew the asshole was friends with and that person went and told him what I did. When he confronted me about it last night I just flat out lied b/c I didn't feel like dealing with the bull shit. But how petty is it for a man in his 30's to be calling people like a little high school girl and rating them out. If I was a dude and did something like this I would be getting a pat on the back but just for the sole purpose that I am a girl people want to talk shit about me. I am not happy about that.
So anyway I had a date last night with the new boy toy, that is what I will call him. It was nice. Although by the ned of the night I could see that he was starting to really like me more than just a friendly thing. I mean he is a really cool dude but he is not my type what-so-ever. If anyone was to ask me what I would like in a guy it would be everything that this kid is not. It is just weird how I am so drawn to him though. He isn't the hottest thing in the world but he is so sweet and so kind that makes up for it. I just don't know what to do. Anyway I have to get back to work.
Bye!!!
