I am alive
I know I haven't posted in a while. Things have been a little hectic on the home front. So as of Friday the asshole has moved out. Wasn't a pretty scene but it was accomplished. I feel like so much weight has been lifted off my shoulders. I have to say I cried all weekend long. And the best part of it was that I wasn't crying over him I was crying over how nasty his mother was to me. She told me that I was running a family and that one day my daughter would realize what a horrible thing I did. And how I was an awful person for cheating on her son and she hopes whoever I cheated with gets his assed kicked. Now those are the words coming out of a 60 year old woman. Shows how much class she has. Last night I didn't sleep too well. Not use to being by myself, but it is something I will be able to get over soon.
So anyway on Saturday night my guy friend stopped by my moms house, since that is where I was staying at until the asshole got all of his shit out. It was nice to see him just one on one and not piss ass drunk. I have to say he is a real sweet heart but lacking in the cute department. Never really noticed it before the other night. And he other flaw is that he is trying way to hard to move to fast. I told him numerous times I don't want to be in another serious relationship and he keeps on saying ok but I don't think he is hearing what I am saying. And I swear the other night I hear him say I love you. Not 100% sure but if he did he is already out the door. I mean come on I am not even out of a relationship yet and you are already saying that sort of shit to me. I think he might be a bit too clingy. And if he was a smart guy he would step back and see that I don't want a relationship right now and that I will most likely hook up with other guys. I mean last Saturday night we went out for my best friends birthday and I was hooking up with the new dude but after he left I hooked up with this guy that I have known for the longest time. Do I feel guilty no one bit. I don't think I am leading the new guy on b/c I tell him over and over again that I don't want a boyfriend right now.
Anyway last night I was exhausted and I missed desperate housewives. I was so pissed. Can anyone fill me in. Anyway got to get back to work. Just wanted to let everyone know that I finally cut the asshole loose.
High Standards
So ever since I have initiated this break up with the asshole and I am in the process of mingling with new people I have decided to set some standards that if the guy doesn't meet he is out the door. I don't think I am being a bitch by doing this. I just feel that I have been put through enough and the least I could do for myself is not get into some of that shit again. So the dude that I am talking to is getting the real one two since I am not putting up with any shit anymore. So far he has been meeting the bar fine until last night. So yesterday he called me while I was at work and while I was on the phone with him he was holding another conversation with one of his friend's from work. He was laughing at something. So I got annoyed and I told him I would just call him later since it seemed that he was busy. He quickly stopped the other conversation but it was already too late. So last night I gave him a call around 7:30pm. Usually when I call him he always answers not last night. And I have never felt comfortable leaving voice mails and since I know that he has called id on his cell phone I didn't leave a message. Lets fast forward to right now and he still hasn't called me back. NOT COOL......He usually always calls me around 1:30 while he is on his break for lunch. Let see if he calls then and if he doesn't he is getting the axe. Simple as that. I am not going through this sort of bullshit again. Someone tell me if I am being a bitch by acting like this.
Talk to ya later!!!
Here we go again
So is it another beautiful Monday morning. Thank god it has stopped raining. I don't think I could have taken one more day of rain. Didn't do to much exciting this weekend. Friday night me and the ass got into a big fight over how he heard that I cheated on him but he left out a big part of the story. So here he asked someone that I didn't know that he knew to watch me to see if I did anything while I was out. That sneaky son of a bitch is all that was going through my mind. So after we had a knock down blow out fight it finally calmed down then one of his friends called and was giving me the one two over this whole thing. He kept on saying to me that we had a family together and to be responsible and just grow up. Oh I could feel the steam coming out of my ears. So I came to the conclusion that the asshole must try to do whatever he can to make himself look good and make me look like the bitch.
So anyway after the baby went to bed on Friday night I went out for a little bit. Believe me nothing exciting what-so-ever. This week is probably going to be a long one and this up coming weekend is packed full of crap we have to do. Well let me get back to doing nothing at work.
Until later!!!!
P.S. Desperate housewives was good last night. Loved how Andrew was fucking with the pharmacist. Terri Hatcher is just getting on my nerves anymore. Can stand her. LB is on tonight cant fucking wait!!!!!!!!!!!!
I got caught red handed
So last night my boyfriend, who I am now on a break with, found out how I hooked up with someone at the bar the other weekend. But the topper was I was out on a date with the dude last night while the asshole was calling me trying to rip me over it. So what happened was a guy that my friend likes is from the same area as the asshole and I guess my friend mentioned that I was talking to the new dude and he ran back and told someone who he knew the asshole was friends with and that person went and told him what I did. When he confronted me about it last night I just flat out lied b/c I didn't feel like dealing with the bull shit. But how petty is it for a man in his 30's to be calling people like a little high school girl and rating them out. If I was a dude and did something like this I would be getting a pat on the back but just for the sole purpose that I am a girl people want to talk shit about me. I am not happy about that.
So anyway I had a date last night with the new boy toy, that is what I will call him. It was nice. Although by the ned of the night I could see that he was starting to really like me more than just a friendly thing. I mean he is a really cool dude but he is not my type what-so-ever. If anyone was to ask me what I would like in a guy it would be everything that this kid is not. It is just weird how I am so drawn to him though. He isn't the hottest thing in the world but he is so sweet and so kind that makes up for it. I just don't know what to do. Anyway I have to get back to work.
Bye!!!
Desperate House Wives, Laguna Beach, and much more
So I never got a chance to talk about DHW the other day. Too much on my mind lately. So I thought the episode was pretty good. At least we got to see who was down in the basement. Although we still have no clue as of who it is. I love the fact the Jesse's character played the shit outta Eva longoria. I cant stand her in real life. Don't mind her too much on the show.
LB was great last night. I cant believe how much of a bitch Kristin was to talan. I wish no one would have asked her and she would of had to go by herself. She is such a self centered bitch. And I love that LC is making Stephen guess about what would ever happen to them. He played her like a fiddle and now the ball is in her court. I cant wait to see what will happen between LC and Jason. I think that they make a hot couple.
So onto my life. Yesterday all day ong I was having battles with my current boyfriend. He cant get it through his head that I want to be on a break. He is driving me fucking insane. And now because of this I am going out on a date on Thursday with the guy that I just recently met. I mean this dude is so not my type what-so-ever. I picture myself with a preppy sort of guy. Like button down shirt and Khaki type of guy. This guy has is somewhat down. Polo shirt and khaki pants but with tattoos and piercing everywhere. This is just so not someone that I thought I would be with. But I guess opposites really do attract?!?!?!??!He is so nice. When you look at him you say oh god he is one of those types of dudes but once he starts to talk you just think he is cool as shit. I guess I will find out how he really is.
I don't think that I am doing anything wrong but I do feel a little guilty inside but I am just going to have to get over that. Stay Tuned
Don't know what to do....
So I went out Friday night and I met up with the boy from the previous Friday. He really is just a down to earth cool dude. We ended up hooking up yet again but I am starting to really wonder if this is the right thing to do. I mean I have tried to tell my current boyfriend that I want it to be over but he just isn't getting it through his head. I mean I don't know what else to say or do for him to realize that I don't want to be with him anymore. And I find myself giving into him sometimes and I know I shouldn't. In all honestly I think I just want to cut all ties with him. I think that it is just the best thing for me. He says he is going to change but I really don't see it at all. But I just don't know what to say or do for him to get the point. I mean it has been a week now and he still cant get it through his head./ I am at aloss. And on Thursday I have a date with the guy from the weekend. What should I do???
It's Friday
So it's Friday and my sister asked if she could take my daughter for the night and I was thrilled. My sister rocks and she does that alot when she knows that I am going through shit. So I am heading out with my girlfriends tongiht for a night out. Not sure where we will end up but as long as we have fun that is all I care about. But I have a feeling that I am going to run into the guy from last weekend. I mean we have talked on the phone during the week but we have no set plans to see each other but I have a feeling that we will run into each other. What am I supposed to do if I do see him. I mean the only reason why we hooked up last time is b/c it caught me off guard and I was wasted. So I tried to talk to my current boyfriend about taking a break and he just wasnt having it. He was flipping a bird that I was doing this. He was acting like we were the first people in the world to have a kid and house and break up. I mean it happens all of the time. And then he was trying to make me feel guilty and I was playing the cold hearted bitch and I just wasnt giving into it at all.I just dont know how to get rid of him. Because I tried the whole thing of telling him I dont want to be with him but he just wouldnt take me seriously. And I am afraid that if I keep on talking to this other guy I might start to like him and then what. I mean I guess as long as I dont get caught doing all of this shit then there is no harm but I am just not the type of person to do that. Any advice would help.
I FUCKED UP BIG TIME
So on Friday night I went out with my girlfriends for happy hour which turned out to staying out all night long. So lets keep in mind that I hardly ever drink and I was at the bar from 6pm-1:30am drinking. So I was hammered. Within my drunken stooper I started talking to some dude. He was really nice and he wasn't bad to look at either. So my ride was going to leave and I was able to find someone else to drive me home. So I had to go get my stuff out of her car and he came along for the walk. I was pretty drunk so he was holding my hand just to guide me along. So after I got my stuff out of the car we were walking back to the bar and he just leaned in and kissed me. The bad part is that I didn't pull away. And I kissed him a few times through out the night. I told him about how I have a daughter and an asshole boyfriend and it didn't seem to bother him. So in the back of my mind I was thinking that this dude probably only wants a piece of ass. Which he wasn't going to get. So he asked for my number and I gave him my work number b/c I was too scared to give him my cell number. IT was just to risky. So I get a email today from my best friend who actually saw him last night and he was saying how he was upset that I only gave my work number because he wanted to talk to me. So he told my friend that if I wanted his number I could get it off of her since he gave it to her. So here is my delima. What do I do????? I mean I think he is cute but I don't want anything serious. And what do I do about the asshole who lives at home with me. I am so torn as of what to do.......
